[chemicalfreak]

i want to drop out of university and kill myself just like two years ago
two years ago i actually got my shit together and dropped out and didn't kill myself thanks to that
maybe this year i can write a fucking dissertation just to rub it in depression's face

i am lonely, i miss my dead friend who always knew what to do (or at least that's how i remember them) and i'm so drunk i talk to random people on the internet